Good Bye !
While things for Miss Kennedy the artist for hire are going much better, the things for MissKennedy the artist-author have gone worse.
Less and lesser readers. the new book, "Kennedys Vendetta" both the german and french version, has sold exactly just 4 copies and from these, no feedback was given.
There were times when I had at least a little audience. People were writing letters with their thoughts about the content of my books. This was so wonderful and it kept me going on. these days are a long gone by now and will never come back.
Nowadays, one comment I get more and more often is : "hey, why aren't you more popular?"
Okay. So now I have to justify myself for not being popular? Are you aware how fucking cruel this is? really, this hurts me very much and takes me down.
Look, I did not draw and create storys for "popularity". I also wasn't doing it to hear an occasional "oh you draw well", "I wish I could draw like this" or shallow, phony bullshit like that. I was doing it in order to share my most inner thoughts, feelings and passions. When I worked on a book or film I constantly had the future reader in mind. That was my motivation. Readers have gone, so has my motivation.
Nobody reads my books again, but instead asks me why I am not popular...Really It couldn't be worse. I have reached the bottom of it all. And I no longer want this.
So after long reflexion, I decided to stop all public activity related to my art - at least for a while.
I will just draw and create stories for myself. No new publishing. This will save me time, money and frustration. I will keep the sites of Antique White House, Georgie and so on online, as a memorial and for the improbable case someone wants to order an already existing book.
I will also quit my facebook, blog and other social network activity.