samedi, janvier 29, 2011

Sweet night

I am still working like hell. Almost no time for breathing.
Last night I had a wonderful connection-dream with JFK. You know, the kind of encounter that makes your day but can't tell in detail, in order to keep my (and his) privacy. But it surely made me happy and excited. Maybe a premature Imbolc Gift? Last year, I had this sort of dreams around and at Imbolc, too.
Really, nights like this and the long lasting feeling afterwards make all the little and big annoyances look insignificant. It reminds me that I should be grateful for all the things I have and the joy that is around me.

Imbolc: I am looking forward for it. It's the festival of the candles - for me as a candle lover a highlight in the year.

mardi, janvier 25, 2011

Preparing Day X

I am approaching the final stages of the Film. This means increasing work : for one, I am now actively looking for the voice actors who have to do the English and the German Version. Someone gave me the URL of a voice actors Forum and this was a big hit. I now have almost all the voices I need for the English version. Things are bit more difficult for the German version. For one, my "ads" have very little response and then the actors are often a bit too young for the roles. We'll see.

On the "Go out - make it public" department, I was at the Tourism Office in town, today. There, we made the arrangements for an exhibit in July. They will print the posters and Flyers and we will perform a public show of the Film on July 15, with the possibility for the spectators to discuss with me afterwards.
Really not the kind of  thing I like to do - fuck, I hate it, I'm sociophobic - but I realize that I'll have to do a lot more PR activity, if I want to get anywhere with this project and my art in general.
Sometimes I envy these extremely extroverted artists who can talk to people for hours, without being asked for and without even breathing. They, at least, get noticed. It's not my idea of decency, but it works.

lundi, janvier 17, 2011

The noise

Here comes the second of the 4 pieces of art I do for the Exhibition "Mental sanity and insanity".
It's titled "Le bruit "(the noise)
It's one of the very rare self-portraits I ever done. The subject of the exhibition somehow drove me into doing pictures about my very own experiences. I do not really feel comfortable with that, but it was also something interesting.

vendredi, janvier 14, 2011

JFK's Mirror

Now that I have a serious deadline for the Film to be finished, I am working on it every minute and don't have time for almost anything else. Nevertheless, I do have other things to do, such as commissioned work and a series of art for an exhibition planned in March. The Exhibition is part of a national week of awareness regarding mental sanity / disease.
Fortunately I am allowed to contribute some art that has been done previously, hence doesn't match the subject. But of course, I also wanted to do some new stuff and try to meet the theme. There are 4 drawings planned and I will present each one here.

The first one doesn't fit the subject either, at least not at the first sight. It is the only approach with a touch of humor within this series. JFK in the morning, at his mirror.
When you are over 45 and look into the morning mirror, this comes out as a balance sheet of your existence. And this does affect your sanity...

dimanche, janvier 09, 2011

Pagan Meme

I'm not really into Memes too, but I found this one at Magalys Blog and decided to just go for it.


Do you have a magical/Pagan name? No.
What does it mean?  N/A
How did you find Paganism? I always felt like a pagan but thought that this was something bad an evil force placed into me. I learned and find out it was my true nature.
How long have you been practicing? 14 years (gee, already THIS long...)
.Solitary or group practitioner?   Solitary, but I love to get inspired by others and learn from them..
What is your path?     
I'm an Eclectic Celtic.
Are you out of the broom closet? Absolutely.


Who is your patron God? Hermes
Who is your patron Goddess? Bastet and Athena
What Gods do you worship? I honor all and actively worship Selena, Rhiannon, Athena,  Bastet, Donar, Dagda, Cernunnos, Freya.
Do you fear darkly aspected Gods/Goddess, or rather respect them? I respect them. I think that they have an important role.
Do you worship the Christian God? No.
Do you ever worship animals? Well, define "worshipping". I am bound to sacred animal spirits.
Or plants? Same as for the animals.
N A T U R EDo you regularly commune with nature? Yes.
Ever walked barefoot in the woods? Yes. 
Taken a camping trip just to talk to nature? Yes.
Describe the moment you felt closest to Mother Earth? Everytime I harvest something in my garden..
Have you ever called upon the powers of an animal in ritual? Yes.
Or a plant? Yes.
Do you hug trees? My trees have names..
Give them gifts?   I should. And will. 
What is your favourite flower to work with? Rose, Lilly.
What is your favourite tree to work with?   Aspen, Oak, Elder Tree, Willow.

W H E E L . O F . T H E . Y E A R 

What is your favourite holiday? Samhain.
What is your least favourite holiday? Pagan or other? I like all pagan holidays - I least like those obscure Catholic Holidays which are only observed in some selected areas of the country hence you acknowledge them only when you stand at the locked door of a shop after a long and painful trip into town, and wonder *why* the fuck its closed...
Have you ever held a ritual on a holiday? Yes.
Ever taken a day off work to celebrate a Pagan holiday? Yes.
Do you celebrate Yule on the 21 rather than the 25? 21 for Yule and 24 for Gifts. 25 is the Foal-Roast day.
Have you ever felt the veil thin? Yes.
Ever danced the Maypole? As a child, without knowing its meaning..
Know what the Maypole symbolizes? Big, long dick - something every male dreams of ?
How do you usually celebrate the Pagan holidays? At home


Do you use Tarot?   Yes.
Do you use runes?   Yes.
Do you use a pendulum? No.
Do you use dowsing rods? No.
Do you use astrology? No. I'm not really into astrology, for I'm so of not fitting the characteristics of my sign..
Any other form of divination? Dreams and Signs. 

S P E L L S 

What was the first spell you did? I can’t remember.
What was the latest? A banning spell
Ever done a love spell? No. I'm strongly against love spells, I support free will in love..   
A job spell? Yes.
A healing spell? yes.
What was the most powerful spell you’ve ever performed? Don’t know.   

C R Y P T O Z O O L O G Y 

Do you believe in Vampires? There are people who suck out your energy, so yes, there are Vampires.
Werewolves? Difficult to say. I think that they may exist in the otherworld and manifest here, when veils are thin.
Shapeshifters? No. In the otherworld - yes.
Elves? Yes.
Faeries? Yes.
Dragons? See above. In the otherworld.
Nymphs? See above.
Sprites? See above, again.
Mermaids? And again!
Satyrs? Some people say, JFK was a Satyr. If so, then I even know one. :-)
Ever “seen” any of the above? As a little child, I saw sort of very little people. But little childern can see into the otrherworld, sometimes..
Ever talked to any of the above? No.
Ever used any of the above in magic?  No.
Do you have one of them as a personal guardian?I have my Totem animals. The owl being my main guardian


Do you see a rabbit, a man or a woman in the moon? Just like Magaly, I see craters.
Own a cat? Not one, six. 
When you meditate, what does your happy place look like? I do not meditate in the classical way, but do spirit-journeys in a trance. The most happy place is then JFK's White House.
Do you work with Chakras?  No, but I want to try it one day.
Do you believe in past lives? Yes.
If so, describe a few briefly: 400 years ago, I was on a whaling boat.  - Hey, I know its not political correct, but whaddaya expect from a boy in the early 1600ies  who could barely read and write ? And hate me for it, but it was a great time. 
Do you believe in soul mates? Not in the common interpretation. But I believe in souls that are tied together, so they form groups who meet again, and again. Even if they hate it.
Do you have a spirit guide? Yes.
Is it always love and light? No.

vendredi, janvier 07, 2011

Killing in the Morning

Shortly after I got up in the morning, I heard a desperate and loud twittering in the kitchen. Pico, Benni and Winzy were after a mouse. Benni was the one to catch it. He growled like an angry Pitbull with the prey between his jaws - it was impossible to take it away from him. So I had to "endure" the fact that they played with the dead mouse for two hours. 
Its the same each winter. Cold drives the mice out of the basement, in search for food and warmth. Not a real good idea in a house inhabited by 6 cats.
Its cruel, but like most country people I am happy that my cats are hunters. I hate them mice invading the house and the food stock.

dimanche, janvier 02, 2011

The star of the show.

We passed a very good December 31. The Star of the evening was - well, our new fireplace.

Our former one was more than 100 years old.
We "inherited" it in Germany, as it was part of the furniture in the farm we rented back in 1990. We took it with us to France in 1996. Since one or two years, it began to slowly decay. It made a hell of a smoke when fired up and I was pretty concerned about the health of our lungs.
In early December, some pieces in the inner side began to fall down and so I took the decision to spend the very last bits of my inheritance for a new one. After some hours of browsing trough the offers in the internet I finally got stuck with an oven sold at Ebay. It had the advantage of being shipped - we cannot load a 60 Kilo Oven into our little car, you know.
I ordered and paid the fireplace on December 16. The seller shipped it the next day. Days passed and there was no delivery.
Okay. We had this heavy snowfall then and since I knew that there was even an interdiction for trucks to roll, I accepted the fact that delivery would be delayed. But even when the weather got better, there was no fireplace at our door. I then called the shipping company. The lady there was pretty snippy : "Did you look outside the window" she said "it snows".
"Yes" I replied. "I did have a look outside, go figure. And aside of snow I also see that there are cars rolling and even transporters."
"We do not deliver to your flat this quickly anyway" she said. "We wait until we have other goods for your area.
I replied that this was not acceptable for a shipping fee over 55 Euros! She said that she would call me back for news on January 3. Oh my.
I mailed the whole story to the seller. It wasn't his fault but I wanted to let him know that the transporting company he works with is all but reliable in my eyes. About a half hour later, I got a call from the shipping company. "You will get the item today."
I was relieved. And really, the new fireplace was in our house the same day. Maybe our worker wold have the time to come the next day and install it? He did. It was December 31 and he came and he even made a trip to Epinal to get the new pipes we needed for the oven.
In the evening, the fireplace warmed the room. We got into the new year with a new fireplace. I took it as a good sign for 2010.
The new Oven is great. It's much bigger and we can use even real big logs. No need to cut down every piece of wood into matches in order to make it fit for the oven.

What I like best is that big transparent door trough which you can see the fire. Wow!